I’m not really superstitious, so the unlucky reference is more tongue in cheek than anything else. But Friday, February 13, was a stressful day for two reasons: the video resume and the meeting with a certified financial planner (which I have already addressed in an earlier post) were both scheduled for me. Oh, and there had been talk of a possible interview squeezed in as well. No pressure at all!
Another long day was in the offing. Up at 5, we (Bob and I) caught the 7 a.m. C&J bus. From the pleasantries being exchanged with the driver, it appears that many do the Dover/Portsmouth/Newburyport to Boston run on a regular basis. I am in no way jealous.
The temperature may have been in the 30s, but the wind-chill was bitter. Although we could probably have walked from Haymarket or the Bank of America stop to One Beacon Street, we opted to take a cab from South Station.
After being cleared by security we made our way to the 23rd floor to the State Office for AARP. Every window had a great view, many over-looking the State House with the river behind — Gorgeous, especially on the bright, sunny day we were having.
I changed into my “interview” suit. Bob and I were both wired for sound, and Audrey began asking Bob some questions about how my unemployment was affecting him and why someone should hire me. He did fine.
Part of my morning would be spending time with Hugh Delehanty, the editor-in-chief of AARP, the Magazine. He had flown up from DC to talk with me, show me around the AARP website, and work with me on the video resume. He would be recording it on a Flip recorder and then having the IT person in the office upload it. I truly had no idea what a video resume was. Hugh showed me a sample. OK, I thought. I’m in trouble now.
Despite the fact that I can talk a blue streak, I am really very introverted. I didn’t have an “elevator pitch” which summarizes what type of job you are seeking. Therein is part of the problem. I know what my experience is, but I have not been able to synthesize what my next career is going to be. WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY!!!???
My other concern was with the Internet process itself. I was requested to put the video on my LinkedIn site. Since LinkedIn doesn’t allow direct uploading of videos, it had to be posted on a site like YouTube and linked to it. This is not something I wanted to do as it put the video totally out of my control. My self-protection shield was in full operation! Another solution would have to be found, but for now I would continue with the process as best as I could.
Hugh had commented that sometimes video resumes are done as responses to questions; although not recommended, they are sometimes read. With my best teacher hat in place, I thought – sound educational model. Hugh can ask me questions, so I can figure out what I am to say. We do that a couple of times, I read something a few times to get familiar with the phrasing, and then we do it from memory — going from what you don’t know to what you do know using your built in knowledge to spearhead the process. Sounds like a plan!
We set up in the lobby area in front of a plain navy blue wall. I was sitting on a gray sofa. The lighting was dim. My red jacket would provide a good contrast. When the filming started, Hugh held up the Flip and said, “What is your name?” I replied, “Diana Schuman” and waited for the next question. Although probably just a few seconds, the time seemed eternal. Hugh finally said, “Aren’t you going to tell me more?” I laughed nervously and replied, “Aren’t you going to ask me another question?”
We tried multiple times for me to just talk extemporaneously. I was floundering. Nothing cohesive was coming forth. This was so counter to my usual of having no trouble expressing my thoughts or opinions.
For example, many years ago at the conclusion of a four-hour interview, the Principal and the Assistant Superintendent said they were going to give me the “5-minute drill.” While I had visions of Jumping Jacks, they were actually going to ask me to talk for five minutes on three controversial issues to see how I handled myself.
My calm reply was to ask if the clock was set and if they were ready. When confirmed, I started to talk without skipping a beat. Partway into the third topic, I asked how I was doing and was told to start wrapping things up. Piece of cake!
My current experience was so very different because I was talking about ME in a most unnatural setting and had little experience maintaining the necessary constant eye-contact with the lens, a totally non-conversational situation. (I was having the same issue in developing my video diary at home.)
Sure I can list skills on my resume and make reference in a letter or interview, but this was so short with no chance for explanations. I caught Bob out of the corner of my eye. His face had that look one gets when a loved one is in deep trouble and you are not permitted to go and help. Even if you could go and help, you wouldn’t have the ability to fix it. His face was reflecting perfectly where I was in the process, completely out of my comfort zone and getting my boundaries pushed! If seeing me under pressure was the goal, it had been met.
I don’t remember if they suggested I take a break or if I stood up and said I needed space. In any case, I had some time to be alone and do some writing to get my thoughts on paper and then proceed.
When we reconvened, I asked Hugh to hold my papers against his tie so they would be in front of me and I could “refer” to them as needed. I “teasingly” begged for cue cards but none magically appeared. At least my sense of humor was intact.
As ready as I was going to be, I started, “My name is Diana Schuman and I find my joy in helping others.” Both Hugh and Audrey gave me a look that they were very pleased and voiced that my comment was a perfect description of me. We sdid a couple more takes and then went to watch the results.
While the end product does have an accurate message, I was not completely happy with the delivery or sound quality and my mouth was open on the first frame! I wanted to do some editing myself but was told that wasn’t possible with this particular technology.
If using technology to get a job was something I needed to explore, then my video resume must be of better overall quality. (My resume is always printed on high-quality paper and is way more informational than it used to be. My letters are well written. My video resume would have to be in the same league.)
Fortunately, I was able to get help from a friend of my son who is a videographer (www.spiresvideo.com). Jeff and I met the following Friday, worked for two hours and came up with something that is pretty good. Not only did I have time to practice and get more comfortable with the process, Jeff created a web page for me. Now the video sits on his server and LinkedIn connects to that. It remains under my control as much as it is possible on line. Yes!! Thank you, Jeff!
Although I found this experience challenging, I learned more about myself. And isn’t that what this whole experience is about? Being the rose-colored glasses person that I have been all my life, I am extracting the good, the growth, the experience, learning from that and moving on, and always finding something to laugh about in the process. Some of my best work has been done when my feet have been put to the fire. This was no exception.
Friday’s experience had helped me combine some of what was on my new resume into a 90-second summary that I can now modify to use in various situations. More succinctly, I am an educator, team player, enthusiastic hard worker, who wants to be part of a team improving the lives of others.
Tongue in cheek, I pause and remember words a former principal used to say, “What doesn’t kill you, makes you strong.” I’m standing on that promise!