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I’m very blessed to have a husband who loves me enough to confront me. After word about my upcoming return to the Kittery, Maine, school system as a 60% 7-12 Technology Integrator for MLTI was revealed in last Sunday’s paper, I got asked lots of questions. My husband was in earshot as I told the back story. This happened repeatedly as I saw folks after church and at an afternoon concert, all of whom had either seen the article or noticed my updates on LinkedIn and FaceBook.

Monday morning, he asked me if I were grateful to be going back to work. “Of course,” I replied. “Well, you don’t sound it,” was his response. I was dumbfounded.  He continued, “You sound as if getting called back to Kittery is somehow not good enough.” As we talked further, he replayed how I had sounded the previous day. I realized that I had not sounded grateful and was downplaying the successful end of my journey.

With tears now coming down my face, I told him I felt that all my hard work with informational interviews, follow-up phone calls, opportunity on national TV with CBS, professional evaluation of my resume, networking, dozens and dozens and dozens of applications, a bunch of interviews (and later rejections), probably a half-dozen newspaper articles in two different local papers, facilitating an employment support group … and here I was. The ONLY reason I was not still in the job search game was because a position had been created in my former district for which I had recall rights. All my work was for naught … Heck, even Harry Smith had told me, “I’d hire you in a minute,” after my first interview on the Early Show. And 18 months after that experience, the BEST I could do was a contractual call back.

I AM A FAILURE!

That was the root of it! That’s what had been making me sound ungrateful as I told people the latest chapter in my story.

I AM A FAILURE!

By now, of course, I was blathering and my nose was running. I realized that lack of self-esteem was sneaking up behind me and wrapping me with a 2×4, coloring everything that had gone on in my life with the color of failure, taking the beautiful rainbow of new experiences and new friends and making it fade to black.

Bob kindly (yet most strongly) put his hands on my shoulders and reminded me that I was far from a failure. I had taken many risks through my two years of unemployment, there had to be a reason that CBS picked me to follow, I stepped out of my comfort zone repeatedly in going to networking meetings, I had been interviewed a bunch of times and the reasons I was not hired had nothing to do with my capabilities, I started Seacoast Peers for Careers and had helped many other folks, I would be filling a real void in teacher support that had exists for 24 months

He further reminded me that not only was I going to be working back in education (my first love), I would be back again in MLTI, that I had tried my wings teaching Communications for CoLead at UNH and brought a social media component to the curriculum. AND, as time had gone one, I had indicated that part-time employment in something I loved would be the best that could happen.

And it had …

I heard his words and started to laugh through my tears. I didn’t completely believe it yet but did acknowledge how happy I would have been if one of my colleagues from Peers for Careers had had a similar experience in returning to work. Why was it less for me?

Yet again, the specter of lack of self-esteem was right there to come and take my joy.

Does it ever stop? Do we always second guess ourselves and think less of ourselves than we really are?

Fortunately, I have Bob to challenge me to get past those feelings.

Fortunately, also counteracting those failure feelings were some great comments I received on LinkedIn and FaceBook and from those who had written me after getting their own jobs, some of which I share with you here:

  • “Congratulations! I was so happy to see that you just accepted a new position as I was looking over my LinkedIn updates. I really enjoyed attending the Seacoast Worker meetings last summer/fall and really appreciated all the support and help the group offered during my job search. Congratulations again – the Kittery School Department is so lucky to have you!” – K.

  • “Just saw your update on LinkedIn..glad to hear you’re back doing what you like to do. Best of luck.” – M.

  • “And, most importantly, thanks for everything.  Your group (and the other I attended) was awesome and helped a great deal.  Not only did I get some technical help (resumes, interviewing, etc.) but, more importantly, it was a huge emotional and mental lift for me.  Again, thanks for everything.  Please know that you have helped a lot of people with this.” – E.

  • “Just got around to checking out the front page of Foster’s!! You’ve become a favorite spokesperson for unemployment concerns.” – M.

  • “I think it’s vital for people to be in the group atmosphere where they can find people in the same position as themselves. You can only get the kind of support you need from people who are walking in your shoes. … You do such a wonderful job leading SPFC Diana. … I wish nothing but the best for everyone and hope GOD’S plan shows itself for everyone soon.” – T.

  • “CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! You are an inspiration to all of us, and you have really demonstrated how to get back into the workforce successfully! You deserve this and I wish you every success in your new position. 60% is a lot better than 0%!” – K.

When I started this journey, I knew that sharing my story was part of the process. I guess that’s just the teacher in me, knowing how much we learn through each other, especially when those experiences are similar to our own. My story is in so many ways the story of many living the life of the unemployed. The details may be different, but the emotions are the same.

I know my work of sharing is not yet done. How it will continue remains to be seen.

As I was writing this post, I took a moment to go to dictionary.com:

Failure is an act or instance of failing or proving unsuccessful; lack of success; a nonperformance of something due, required, or expected while success is the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors, a successful performance or achievement.

Hmmm, don’t that beat all? I guess, I’M A SUCCESS after all.

In overcoming fear and sharing our stories with others,

we find the truth about who we really are—

and discover that we’re not alone.
~ Lisa Hammond

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Gratitude is an attitude that hooks us up to our source of supply. And the more grateful you are, the closer you become to your maker, to the architect of the universe, to the spiritual core of your being. – Bob Proctor

My husband Bob went to check the Powerball number in Sunday’s paper. Lo and behold, whose face should greet him below the fold but mine — yet again. Fame is so yesterday. Yawn. Tee hee. Those of you who have been following my story know that I have been mentioned in a number of articles during the two years I’ve been out of work.

Seriously, along with a young man with a few years of teaching experience, I had been interviewed because of losing our jobs. According to the article, Laid-off area teachers scramble to find work, some 200 teachers had been laid off statewide this year with the southeastern and northern ends of New Hampshire the hardest hit. Fortunately, Lee Sims (the other teacher in the article) was able to quickly find a position at a local private school. Others, of course, are not so lucky.

Even more unfortunate will be the students who will bear the brunt of the loss of teachers and programs.

It was mentioned in the article that I am returning to work in my former school district. A position was created this spring for a K-12 Technology Integrator. Funding was sufficient for a 60% position that would deal with grades 7-12 to support the Maine Learning Technology Initiative one-to-one laptop program. Because I had the experience, education, and certification, I was offered the post.

While it has some components of my former job, it is not the same. Instead of responsibilities for integration, small group instruction, staff support, hardware and network for grades 6-8, I will be working with solely with teachers in two buildings facilitating technology use in their classrooms.

While I would not have turned down a full-time position, I have come to realize that part-time is a good thing at this point in my life. It allows the best of both worlds. I am working at something I enjoy. Yet, I’m hoping to be able to have some time with Bob when he’s not working and also continue doing empowerment group facilitation with Seacoast Peers for Careers.

Things have changed in two years, including me. There are new applications and new expectations. Some teachers I don’t know at all; some know me very well. That’s both good and bad. There’s a new superintendent with her own vision for the district.

What hasn’t changed is my enthusiasm for my craft and gratefulness for all these new blessings in my life.

It’s a new day and a new school year! Here we go!

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It’s official!

Labor Day 2010 will find me engulfed in beginning a new school year and a new job.

I have a 60% position back in Kittery, Maine, as a 7-12 Technology Integrator for MLTI (Maine Learning Technology Initiative) one-to-one laptop program starting August 30.

The light at the end of the tunnel is no longer an on-coming train!

Wish me luck.

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I spent four days last week in beautiful Castine, Maine, home of the Maine Maritime Academy, and the site of the annual MLTI (Maine Learning Technology Initiative) conference. This was an opportunity for me to get my brain re-activated in “all things laptop” as I get ready to return to the Kittery, Maine, school system as a 60% MLTI Integrator for grades 7-12. For those of you outside of education, that means I will be helping teachers bring more uses of technology into their classrooms not for the technology itself but as a tool for education.

I had a chance to reconnect with some folks and meet lots of new ones. Herein were the unexpected convergence of various parts of my life that are outside my role as technology educator. As they were unfolding, I was fully aware of the comment I made during my interview with the producer of the CBS piece that this entire unemployment experience was directly tied to my spiritual journey. There could be no other explanation why these seemingly disparate events occurred.

One – I had a book with me that dealt with strategies for living the second half of your life including information about self-healing. When a woman I met made a comment about being involved in “healing arts.” That led to hours of conversation over the next two evenings about energy and healing which gave me opportunity to share my experience in healing touch spiritual ministry and how it relates to my Christian walk.

Two – Someone I had met earlier in the week was wearing a pendant etched with a phrase about choosing happiness and putting your energy into that aspect. A conversation ensued about the impact Elie Wiesel’s Night had on her and how much good Wiesel did during his lifetime after living through the Holocaust. I, too, had been impacted by the book and mentioned another, The Hiding Place, written by another Holocaust survivor, Corrie Ten Boom, a Christian, whose family had hidden Jews and members of the Dutch Underground. Although Wiesel’s faith was completely shaken, Ten Boom’s was strengthened by the experience. Ten Boom felt “there is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still” and that “God will give us the love to be able to forgive our enemies.”

Three – Lastly, I found myself using my job search experience with two different people. One I encouraged to make the post-interview phone call to check on the status of the position and the other I told about using a Professional Profile at the beginning of a resume, which provides a clear indication and summary of your skills, experience and accomplishments and value to the employer. I might have been away from Seacoast Peers for Careers in person but not in action.

Could these happenings be a variation on Romans 8:28 (New Living Translation)?

We know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I’d like to think so.

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For the second time in my life, I’m sitting in beautiful Castine, Maine, but not as a vacationer sitting down near the water nor cruising on one of the boats moored in the harbor. I’m inside at the Maine Maritime Academy attending a four-day conference relative to the Maine Learning Technology Initiative (MLTI for short), the one-to-one laptop program that has been in existence since 2002. My first training conference must have been in 2003. Now, like then, I am among peers and experts in the field and have much to learn.

For those unfamiliar with the program, MLTI transformed middle level education in the State of Maine by giving each 7th and 8th grader an Apple laptop, installing a wireless network in each building, and providing some exceptional professional development.

Shapleigh Middle School, where I used to work, was selected as one of the nine exploratory sites around the State and received two class sets of laptops a semester before the full rollout in September 2002. In fact, Governor Angus King (the visionary leader who came up with this plan) used Shapleigh for the kickoff of the program. Its location in Kittery (referred to as the “Gateway to Maine”) seemed the logical spot for telling students, “The world will be watching you,” as this was the largest technological implementation ever. I consider my involvement with the program one of the major highlights of my long educational career.

Over the years, Shapleigh played host to educators from other states, a town in Quebec and a delegation from France. Between laptops, a culture of high standards for kids and cooperation and sharing among staff, along with the leadership of Principal, Greg Goodness, the school was given Blue Ribbon status and its administrator was Maine Principal of the Year.

But that’s history. So why is Diana here when her technology job was eliminated two years ago?

It’s simple:

I’ve got a new/old job!

“What’s a ‘new/old’ job?” you ask. The district Advisory Committee for Information Literacy recommended the creation of an integrator position for fall. After two years of providing support with a coordinator, an ed tech, and a technician, the reality that technology was falling behind without someone to facilitate integration. Originally proposed as a K-12 position, funding was authorized at the 60% level. It will be similar to my old job but will not include all the hardware and network responsibilities.

I’ve been away from this world of technology, so I’m feeling a bit rusty. I’ve been away from the conversations in District as well, so I’m not sure what the teacher needs are. I’ve been away from the jargon, so have definitions to learn.

As always, I am not only learning new things but also having to think about how they will be used in the future after I teach them to others. Being learner and integrator is not always easy but is just part of the game. I’m in sponge mode trying to absorb as much as I can to bring back to my colleagues.

Two summers ago, I was 100% unemployed. As summer 2010 comes to a close, that percentage will reduce, though not be completely eradicated.

In some ways I have come full circle.

The long journey ends as a new one begins.

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On Tuesday, April 7, 2009,  Foster’s Daily Democrat published an article about the Maine Learning Technology Initiative one-to-one laptop program being expanded to include high schools. Right now, this outstanding program is nearing the end of its second four-year term for all 7th and 8th graders in the State of Maine.

After conversations with Seymour Papert, the developer of Logo programming language, Governor Angus King envisioned a major transformation in education that would happen only when student and teachers worked with technology on a one-to-one basis.

I was privileged to be part of that program from its very beginning. Shapleigh Middle School was one of nine pilot schools in the State that got two class sets of laptops in the spring of 2002 before the full roll out for 7th graders that fall. 8th graders would get their machines the following year. Governor King actually launched the program from Shapleigh and told the kids, “the world will be watching.”

And the world did. Over the years, not only was Greg Goodness, the school’s principal at the time, flown to Apple headquarters in California to meet with representatives from other states considering such a program; but we had visitors on a regular basis including a contingent from the only English-speaking district in Quebec and another group from France that included the Minister of Education.

Why do I mention this at all in my blog? Well, it’s very simple. Reading that article brought back a lot of emotions for me. I was the integrator and tech lead for the program (officially called a Computer Technologist) when my position was eliminated last June. For six of the 16 years I was employed in Kittery, my days were surrounded by Macintosh iBooks, working with individual or small groups of kids as needed, working with colleagues to either improve their skills or demonstrate for their classes, assisting the office in solving data base or software and hardware issues, and working side by side with an incredible group of professionals on a day-to-day basis. I loved my job and looked forward to each day. In fact, while my contract included ten additional working days because of all the hardware needs during the summer, most of the time I was on campus at least twice that.

Seymour and the Governor were right! Education in many ways was transformed. Students became more accountable for their own work, were engaged in authentic projects that were challenging and creative, questions that would have taken hours after school to answer took a few moments on the internet, students developed abilities to demonstrate their learning to rooms full of adults and peers; and a recent study showed that students across all socio-economic levels improved their writing skills when the entire process was done on a computer rather than just “typing up” the finished copy.

I miss my involvement as part of that particular team which made huge changes in the lives of the kids we served. But I am ready for the next opportunity. I wonder where it will be?

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Thursday, January 29, Audrey was due at my house in Dover around 9:30 am. We would later travel to Kit’s for filming of a career counseling session. Why I didn’t put two and two together that filming would also occur at my house, I don’t know. I knew there was to be an interview, so I should have realized a camera crew would also be arriving.

And one did, a very nice chap!

In short order my living was rearranged so that a chair was smack dab in the  middle in front of the fireplace. I was told that the room was great and would be a wonderful background to our conversation.

Audrey asked me lots of questions and was out of view of the camera. Because I tend to gesticulate so very much, I opted to sit on my hands while I talked to appear more calm and to hopefully slow down my machine gun delivery.

With hindsight that was probably not the best thing to have done. I probably appear pretty flat and without my animated style. But I won’t know that (nor will you) till March 23 and beyond, depending on which day my story will be told. Live and learn. The “next” time I’m “famous” I’ll be so much better prepared. 😉

Among the questions I was asked (and I’m sorry I don’t remember much) were what it was like to be unemployed, did I feel I was subject to age discrimination, and what was happening now that I was no longer receiving unemployment benefits.

Audrey told me I used the word “panic” in five responses. This surprised me greatly as I didn’t feel in a state of panic while we were talking. But I had been pretty panicky the week before when the unemployment news came down that my claim for the extension was being held, and no job prospects were in sight. I found I had started to apply for just about anything that I was remotely qualified for giving no thought to whether or not I would actually enjoy doing the sort of work or seriously thought I would be hired.

And then there was a drastic change. Something had happened that my words were not accurately portraying.

The morning after being selected for the news piece, I started a spiritual retreat to explore whether I felt a specific call of God on my life. I have felt that my teaching and the related work I did around my church were a gift that I was to share. However, whether I was to actually pursue certification or ordination was another matter entirely but one that I felt needed exploration.

Although engaged in spiritual discernment sessions with a group of about 40 amazing people with incredible talents and stories, I was till doing my job searching online (aren’t laptops great?). I had left feeling a great deal of turmoil about the questions relative to unemployment and worried about finances and whether I would ever get a job.

An interesting thing happened on Friday, however (six days before the taping). I was engaged in a conversation about unemployment, the words of which should have caused me major distress. But they didn’t. Instead I had a feeling of overwhelming peace.

God had brought me through unemployment back in 1993 and into a job that I loved. I had been blessed to have had a career that was fulfilling. I knew that my high school teaching job was were I was supposed to have been just as the middle school job was. God had been with me each time, our family had gotten stronger through the process; so why should this experience have a different ending?

That feeling has stayed with me, though I do need to remind myself every so often. What had happened during the interview, however, was that my brain had not yet caught up with my heart; so my mouth was responding with the expected answers and not the ones my spirit knew.

I don’t know where this will end. I do know that it will be “good.” The “good” may be very different than I expect. The “good” may not be good by the world’s standards, but I know that the “good” will be what is best for me. And I will stand on that promise.

But back to the taping. Part of the focus was to get “real” footage of me in my home; so I was followed around in my kitchen wiping counters, wrapping up banana bread, putting dishes in my dishwasher. Is nothing sacred? LOL

That done, we were off to have lunch in beautiful downtown Dover and then on the road for more taping.

Oh, and I was given a camera  to record my own personal video diary. I did one shot holding the camera in my hand, saw how much I looked like I was in a fishbowl (not to mention how your wrinkles and pores look) and proceeded to get a small tripod to use!

Vanity thy name is Diana!

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